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Letting go

Hello lovelies,

I am in an amazing mood today so I thought I'd write a blog post that I have been meaning to write for a while. Letting go, this is something I have struggled with all my life. I am a person to hold grudges and never let them go but I'm turning over a new leaf.
Not letting go of things means that when I'm on my own I'm usually unhappy and I've realised that life is just too damn short to be unhappy all of the time. So many things are positive in my life at the moment; I'm at uni ( something I've wanted to do since I can remember), I have the most amazing friends and my family are so supportive. So why should I be unhappy because of things that happened ages ago? You are probably wondering what it is that has had me so unhappy so I'll fill you in.

If you have read my blog post titled 'something a bit personal' you will know exactly what I am referring to. If you haven't I suggest you do in order to get the details of the situation. To sum it up basically I haven't spoken to my brother in 3 years but recently he has got back in touch with my parents and they are rebuilding their relationship. I have decided not to talk to him for personal reasons that I don't want to go into but now that he is back in my parents lives I feel like it's time to let go of everything that happened and move on. It's been really difficult to let it go but I think I am finally in a place where I can. If I don't then I feel as though I'm forcing my parents to choose between me and him and I don't want to do that at all; I respect their decision 100% and they respect mine.

So, as cheesy as it sounds, I feel like a new person. Like this is the first time I've felt like myself since this all began and I'm ready to start a new chapter of my life.

Ah, that's a weight off of my chest!
Next weeks post is going to be an updates version of 'lets talk about sex' so talk then!

LMR x

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