Little Miss Rendell

I have documented my own mental health on my blog extensively throughout the last few years. I suffer with anxiety but fortunately for me it is not life changing and I only have a slight disorder. Saying this, when I wake up I don't actually know whether the day will be a good or bad one. One day I will be the most care free person and the next I will worry about everything. This is difficult for me to deal with and so I can only imagine what others go through with severe anxiety disorders, depression, OCD and all the other challenging mental health issues thousands of people tackle every day. I wanted to write about this subject matter today because I woke up to the news that Sophie Gradon, from series 2 of Love Island, had passed away. Her cause of death has not been confirmed but many of her friends on social media have implied that Sophie committed suicide. This has hit me quite hard, I do not know her personally but I absolutely loved her when she was on Love Island and she ...

Queer Eye has been constantly criticized, mainly when it first came out, that the show was just pandering to gay stereotypes. I heard this criticism before I watched a single episode so I had an idea of the series before I began to watch it. However, since watching the show I could not disagree with these criticisms more if I tried. Yes, the gay men on the show specialise in style, interior design and grooming but this isn't what the show is about. Of course they are advising clients and changing their homes but at its core the show is about how it is okay to just be you. Do not apologise to be you is the main message in every single episode, whether they are helping a straight man, woman, gay man or trans man. They treat everyone the same and this should be what the media focus on and I think mainstream media is beginning to get it. The new series is what I have completely fallen in love with. I adored the fab five before, in the rebooted version of the show on Netflix, but i...

I know you say outrageous things in interviews, whilst presenting and in your tweets for a reaction and even by me writing this post I'm pandering to your immature journalism but this time I can't hold my tongue. One of your recent tweets discussed how women shouldn't complain about being objectified if they wear an outfit that highlighted their legs or cleavage. This statement is quite frankly stupid. Why can't women wear something that makes them feel confident and sexy within themselves? Are men not capable of controlling themselves? At university I have worn many outfits to make MYSELF feel good, not to impress men, and all of my male friends have been respectful. Nicola Thorpe would be well within her right to 'complain' if a anyone, not just men, made a sexist remark to her for wearing what she wants to wear. Another tweet that I just thought was ludicrous was the one where you blamed Raheem Sterling for Prince George playing with a toy gun. This I am aw...

My anxiety in recent times has been getting worse, especially just before I go to sleep. For some reason my brain likes to remind me of the worst possible outcomes of all the situations happening in my life. Due to this I've been having trouble sleeping and when this happens I turn to my phone out of boredom. One night I was scrolling through my Youtube homepage and one of my favourite Youtubers, Melanie Murphy, had posted a video including ASMR which I had no knowledge of previous to this. I starting researching all around this subject and this post is based around what I found out and what affects it has had upon myself and my anxiety. ASMR stands for autonomous sensory meridian response. This sounds very complex but really its videos featuring visuals and sounds that calms the person watching and sometimes gives you goosebumps. Many of the videos may come across as strange to begin with, the rolepays and the personal attention especially, but I urge you to try them out and fin...

So many people ask me why I have such a huge amount of passion for rugby and there are so many reasons for it. The first being that it was something that I grew up with. One of my earliest memories is watching an England match with my mum who was screaming at the telly as a penalty didn't go our way, something many of my friends and family witness me doing now I'm older and understand the game. However, my family only ever watched international matches and it wasn't until I was in year 11 that I embraced the club side of rugby. The superficial reason this passion began for club rugby was my love for the player Owen Farrell. To this day he is my favourite and I did fan girl a lot when I met him. Whilst watching an England game the stats came up on the screen and highlighted each players club. Saracens is who Farrell played for and continues to play for today. BT sport had just began to show premiership matches on the TV so I sat down to watch, supporting Sarries for Farrel...

It has been a long while since the last time I posted on here. I have been facing some writers block along with completing my degree, but I'm back now. Now I have free time, not chained to my laptop writing endless essays, I've binge watched a lot of TV. The most recent series that I have watched is Thirteen Reasons Why and I have some opinions on the latest season that I wanted to share. If you have not watched it yet please do not read this as this post will contain a lot of spoilers. I want to begin with the only big negative that I took away from this season. The season concludes with Tyler arriving at the school with an array of guns ready to shoot his fellow classmates. The process in which they showed Tyler's progression to get to this state of mind was well acted and written, making you feel empathy for Tyler and willing him not to go through with his hideous plan. However, the aspect that the creators did not shed a light on is how Tyler came into possession of ...

If you know me then you'll know that any conversation that isn't overly sarcastic, a debate or small talk makes me slightly uncomfortable and awkward. What I've wanted to say to my housemates, that I'm about to relay in this post, has either come out through drunken messages or sarcastic comments. I just wanted to take this opportunity to say thank you. The last few months have been the hardest time I've ever had to go through. Excusing my parents, who were also amazing in supporting me, the girls I live with witnessed me at my worst time and they kept me going. With nights out to distract me, watching my ugly cry and always there to hear me discuss the same thing over and over. I really don't know what I would have done without them. So Catherine, Sim, Jen, Ellie and Charlotte thank you for everything. I love you all. Now I will revert back to the awkward sarcastic friend everyone knows me to be haha.