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5 years on.

5 years ago something happened in my personal life that changed who I was. If you have been reading my blog for a while then you'll know what this is, if you haven't take a break from this post and skip through and have a read. Everything that happened then made me a stronger person, something I am grateful for at this particular moment in my life.

Everyone around me said at the time that everything happens for a reason. Losing the person who was closest to me at the time, not through a circumstance out of our control but through them voluntarily walking away from me was the worst thing I could imagine. I ignored everyone who said that to me. What was the reason behind me losing my brother, my confidence and my family unit as I knew it? I think I've finally figured out what the reason was for this: to make me a strong and independent person. Now if someone hurts me I can deal with it, knowing that even when the most important person was taken away from me I was able to survive and even thrive in life.

In the last 5 years I have achieved good grades in GCSE's and A levels, achieved my dream of going to University and defeated some of my anxiety demons by making friends for life at Uni. Whatever life throws at me because of what happened all that time ago I know I can handle it, I can say now that I'm glad it happened because without it my life would be completely different to what it is now. I am so proud that I have got to a stage where I can say that, that life event no longer defines me and it's like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

I can't wait to start 2018 and see what life has in store. Roll on the best year of my life so far.

LMR

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