Little Miss Rendell

Hello lovelies. 4 years is a long time. 4 years ago I was just about to turn 16, from then until now I think I have grown up and shaped myself into the person I am today. This I have done without my brother, my once best friend, who hasn't spoken to me in 4 years. I'm not going to explain why, you can go back and read about that in my previous blog posts, I just wanted to post somewhere as a source for my pain. I don't even know if that's the right word, pain? It was painful at the time it happened but now I have kind of moved on the word to describe the way I feel escapes me. I think the hardest part is going through so many things and not being able to share it with him. All of my results days, moving away from home and going uni, my first heartbreak, all of that I have had to do without him. I was about to type alone but I haven't been alone, I have my parents, my friends and my boyfriend but there's something a little different about having your sibling ...

Hello lovelies. If you are my friend on Facebook then you will know that I have recently became a blogger for a company called 'University cribs'. This is so exciting for me because all I've wanted to do since I was 13 was to become a journalist and being able to write for a company that has thousands of readers is amazing. This opportunity came to me through my friend Ashlea, the company were advertising for student bloggers and as I write this blog Ashlea tagged me in the post and got all of this rolling. I suppose the reason that I'm writing this post is to kind of inspire some of you who are thinking of starting a blog but haven't built the confidence too yet. I started writing my blog nearly two years ago now. The reason that I started it was that I write for a local magazine in Melksham, I've been doing that for 3 years, and I'm the kids columnist. This means that I don't get to write about what I want to as children don't really want to know...

Anger. A feeling I have on a daily basis, you know that feeling you get when you're about to explode because you're so angry? The bubbling knot you have in your stomach? I wake up with that feeling everyday, most days. This might be because I keep my feelings to myself most of the time. So if something annoys me I keep it to myself, bury it and then just push more hurt and anger on top of it. I do this for two reasons. The first is that I'm a people pleaser, I hate it when people don't like me I have a chronic need for people to like me. The second is that people won't think my feelings are valid. For example the other day I got annoyed and spoke to my friends about it. Instead of being in my side or at least comforting me they labelled it a 'miscommunication' and disagreed with everything that I said. Yes, if I am being over the top maybe suggest I could be misconstruing things, but at least acknowledge the way that I'm feeling. This is why I keep thin...

Donald Trump is now the 45th president to be elected. Yep you just read that correctly. The sexist, racist bigot is now in charge of one of the most influential countries in the world. The question that I want Americans to answer is how could they back track so much? They had just elected their first black president, for two terms, and now they have elected the most misinformed politician we've ever seen. I thing that confuses me the most is how could any woman vote for Trump after he made sexist comments such as 'grab her by the pussy'. He responded when this was leaked by saying it was locker room banter. This isn't the case, it's disrespect to all females, the fact that he thinks it's okay to treat females in this manner is disgusting. The young girls of America now have this man as a leader and role model. Of course in the run up to the vote Trump said some outrageous things, such as building a wall on the border of Mexico, to appeal to the radicals t...

Hello lovelies! Last week I went to the cinema with some friends and watched the new psychological thriller 'The girl on the train'. This is an adaptation from the book written by Paula Hawkins and stars Emily Blunt as the protagonist Rachel Watson. We will start with the performance of Emily Blunt. She portrays an alcoholic who suffers with memory loss after drinking too heavily. She tries to piece together the night a woman went missing in order to give her life purpose. I really liked Emily in this role. Usually I am not a fan of her acting, for example in 'The Huntsman- Winter's War' I found her portrayal very stiff and restricting, but in this role she seemed to flourish and embrace the character. She is really haunting at times and throughout the movie the audience are unsure as to whether they should be rooting for this character or be against her which I think is a result of Emily's edgy portrayal. There are many other supporting characters in this...

Hello Lovelies! This week I thought I'd do a more personal post instead of the general topics. I came across a photo on Facebook recently (shown below) and this is what this post is inspired by. Over the summer I hit my lowest point, even lower than when my brother walked out 4 years ago, it wasn't a great time for me for a number of reasons. Me and my friends, who I'd been friends with for years, grew apart and now we don't speak. This is a natural part of life and there are no bad feelings between us but it was a bit shit at the time. Then my brother reached out to me and said he wanted to speak to me, I was a little nervous to let him in again ( which is understandable if you know our history) but I said that it would be good to build a relationship again. We bumped into each other at our local pub and it was if the last 4 years hadn't happened, it was so nice to have him back. Then a few weeks later he messaged my mum inviting her and my dad round his house...

Hello lovelies. In my life I have only ever experienced sexism first hand through jokes and 'banter', until recently. I have moved back to Southampton to begin my second year at university and with this means that I have moved out of halls and into a house of my own with 5 of my friends. This has also meant that I have moved into a separate part of the city and more locals live where I live now. The scenario I am about to tell you has happened to me three times now and I have been back in Southampton for two weeks. I was walking to the train station last week and I was walking down the main high street of the new area I am living in. I was just walking along minding my own business and I looked up and noticed three men walking towards me. I thought nothing of it and kept on walking. As I got closer to them they physically stopped walking, looked me up and down and started saying really derogatory things to me. This was such a shock to me, I couldn't believe they had actu...

Hello lovelies, this week I went to see the new Bridget Jones movie for my friends birthday. I didn't go into the cinema with high hopes, I knew the plot of the book and so I knew the plot for the movie was completely different. This bugged me immensely because the books follows such an interesting and funny story line that I couldn't understand why they changed it. But, with this considered, I was pleasantly surprised by this movie. As always we will begin with the positives of this movie. Despite Renee Zellweger's appearance being completely different of that of the two previous films she slots right back into the role of Bridget. She is still the clumsy, embarrassing and relatable Bridget we all know and love. Her performance was everything that the audience is looking for. The leading men in this movie, Colin Firth (Mark Darcy) and Patrick Dempsey (Jack Qwant), do not disappoint either. Firth reprises the role of the handsome gentleman and is the lovable charact...

Hello lovelies! The post this week will follow on from last weeks, 'Is Fifty Shades normalizing rape?', where I questioned whether the nature of the narrative in this book made unacceptable sexual behaviour seem like the norm. This week I want to delve into the topic of victim shaming, an example of this occurred recently. The Sun recently published a headline that read 'woman drank six jagerbombs in ten minutes on the night she was raped and murdered'. The public united in slating the tabloid for victim shaming the poor girl that this happened to. The message that this despicable headline sends is that the girl is responsible for her rape and murder because she had a bit to drink. Everyone, not just women, are entitled to go out and have fun without having to fear for their lives. A question that crossed my mind is what headline would the editors of The Sun have written if the victim was a man? Would they have blamed his alcohol in take? This links to my post from ...

Hello lovelies! This weeks post, as you can tell from the title, concerns matters that may upset you so if you are not comfortable in discussing rape do not read this post. I read the entire franchise of 'Fifty shades' when I was 17 and I have to say I was completely hooked. Everything about it intrigued me and I completely loved it. At that time I saw many people talking about rape related to the books and I used to defend 'Fifty Shades'. I couldn't see where they were coming from, Ana and Christian consented to each other and to me that was it. Rape didn't occur as there was consent involved, a very black and white issue, case closed, right? Wrong. I'm not suggesting that every sexual occurrence in these books is rape, for me it only happens once throughout the novels. I re read the books recently as the second film is due to be released early next year and I wanted to revisit the story so I had it fresh in my mind for the movie. There is one point in...

Hello lovelies! Me before you is the latest RomCom to hit our screens, directed by Thea Sharrock and starring Sam Claflin and Emilia Clarke, promises to be everything the audience would hope for in a romantic comedy. Of course, this movie is based upon the book written by Jojo Moyes. I haven't read the book but I've asked friends who have and they say that the film is very true to the book which fans will be pleased about. Let's begin on the hunk of the movie; Sam Claflin. Sam plays the character of Will Traynor, an active young man until he's involved in a road accident and becomes paralysed. I thought the Sam played this part beautifully. The audience could feel his pain of not being able to be the person he once was and yet still let some of his spectacular personality shine through; helped by Emilia Clarke's character, Louisa Clark. No spoilers, of course, but the ending of this RomCom is one the audience will not expect and Claflin performs it brilliantl...

Hello lovelies! I've just finished that latest series of OITNB and I have been moved by the powerful scenes in the last two episodes. Of course, world wide we know of the police brutality that occurs on the streets of America but to see it in action was distressing. Now I know it's acting but the actors and actresses that make up this Emmy award winning cast perform so well that the audience, when watching, are encapsulated in the prison world. The scene that I am referencing is the tragic death of Poussey Washington. How a peaceful protest could end in a murder is what I think most viewers are distressed over. I would like to congratulate the writers on choosing to centre the story around a black life because I believe if Poussey were white this situation wouldn't have occurred. Previously to this a guard, Humps, made crazy eyes fight with another prisoner which triggered her mental instability. During the peaceful protest Crazy eyes set eyes upon Humps and this sent h...

Hello lovelies! I went to see the new Jungle Book movie at the weekend and I thought I'd do a short review for you. I saw it in IMAX 3D which was the best decision that we made (we being me and my friends Kitty and Rochelle). This enabled us to feel as if we were in the movie ourselves due to the amazing visual affects throughout this movie. From outstanding landscapes to the attention to detail on King Louie's palace. Everything looks breath-taking in this movie. On top of this is the sound effects. The music is to the mark on this film. In times of anticipation the music was so well built up that I was hiding behind my hands waiting for something to jump out at me. Another point I'd like to raise about the music is that I love that the director and other makers of this film weren't scared to put the songs we all know and love into this movie. The other recent Disney remakes have shied away from this and I think this is what makes The Jungle Book so much better...

Hello lovelies! I'm sure you're aware that this weeks post is different to what I usually post. Yes this will be a political post if you couldn't guess from the title. I wanted to make this to inform you on the options of the upcoming referendum that is taking place on Thursday 23rd June 2016. If you are 18 and over you are legible to take part in this vote which I believe you should do. I know many don't take part in voting 'as it won't make a difference' but believe me it does. If you don't voice your opinion who will? But in order to vote you need to know what you are actually voting for so here is some information on the EU and benefits and problems of staying in or opting out. Okay lets start with staying in the EU- what our current government are trying to persuade the public to do. To start we'll go through the positives of staying within the EU. I'll go through 10 reasons as to why we should stay in the EU. 1. Jobs- 3.5 million British...

Hello lovelies, I am in an amazing mood today so I thought I'd write a blog post that I have been meaning to write for a while. Letting go, this is something I have struggled with all my life. I am a person to hold grudges and never let them go but I'm turning over a new leaf. Not letting go of things means that when I'm on my own I'm usually unhappy and I've realised that life is just too damn short to be unhappy all of the time. So many things are positive in my life at the moment; I'm at uni ( something I've wanted to do since I can remember), I have the most amazing friends and my family are so supportive. So why should I be unhappy because of things that happened ages ago? You are probably wondering what it is that has had me so unhappy so I'll fill you in. If you have read my blog post titled 'something a bit personal' you will know exactly what I am referring to. If you haven't I suggest you do in order to get the details of the s...

Hello lovelies! Just a quick note to say thank you for the amazing response to last weeks post. I have received many messages of support telling me to write what I want to write about which is what I am going to do from this post forward. So to start this new path of my writing I'm going to write about my English degree. English has always been my passion and so when I received my A level results I was disappointed. I got a B in English but I was aiming for an A as my dream university, the University of Exeter, had that requirement. Due to my result I am attending my second choice uni- the University of Southampton and I have to say my grade was a blessing in disguise! I absolutely adore Southampton and all the people I have met here, especially my flat mates. So far my degree has been a bit up and down. Last semester I has three modules as any degree does. I took; Narrative and Culture, Old English and Poetic Language. I loved Poetic language because it was something I was fa...

Hello lovelies! I know it has been a while since I have posted but that is what today's post is all about. Firstly I'd like to say happy new year to you all and I hope your Christmas breaks were amazing! I'm in a confused head space at the moment as to what to do with my blog. Most bloggers my age write about beauty and fashion and although I love to read these blogs and indulge in these topics myself, I feel as though I'm not interested in writing about them. I love to feel passionate when I'm writing and many times since my last post I have started to write about products I have bought etc. and I've just deleted them all because they all sound fake, as though it's not me who has written the piece. I would love to write things about politics and history but I know the common audience for blogs wont read that content. This is why I'm so confused, I don't know whether to stop blogging or just to succumb to what will be popular but go against what...